One day at a time...

Yesterday was a trying day, both mentally and physically.

Realized I have a loooong way to go to work on being happy with myself. Spiritually, physically, and mentally. I'm in a place where I could settle and be "just ok" with some of these, but not really happy. I think all of these tie together and when one is off balance the others will soon follow. You can't make up for the weakest link by trying to make the others stronger. Cause no matter how hard you try, eventually that weak link is gonna give, then what good are the others? That weak link has gotta be worked on first!

Stress is the reason my balance is off. It's like a little gremlin with a hack saw trying to cut the steel holding my chain together. I have to am going to work on stress management.

                                                    Ever feel like this? Yeah, me too!

Stress has a way of taking a toll on everything. Yesterday, it even affected my health. I had to leave work because of stress (and possibly something I ate. But, with eating clean I doubt it) messing with my tummy.

So that's the final straw! I'm going to get a handle on this! Time to reel in this 3 ring circus! I'm the ring master, not one of the clowns!
(would insert a picture of a clown here, but really?)

Can't keep up!

So many things are going on! Seems like it's hard to focus on one thing at a time.
I'm the kind of person who obsesses. My brain runs in a stream of consciousness that as soon as it finishes one thought, it's on to the next one! Thinking about getting into yoga, or meditation. Something to help me calm down and enjoy the moment I'm in. My life is a constant GO GO GO! I'm thinking I need an hour sometime during the day to re-focus.

(this looks so nice and relaxing...It will be me soon!)

Had some bad luck recently, and really want to focus more on the positive than on the negative. I have so much to be thankful for, and really need to.. well...be thankful for it!
So this blog started out as a way to document my contest preps, but now I'm going to focus more on a way to get my thoughts out and keep an update on my personal health and fitness.
So, starting with today!
Got up at 5am...yes, I like getting my workouts out of the way early so it's one less thing that I have to do.
Hit glutes at the gym, and got in some cardio! DONE! 
I'm eating clean still, and focused on just being better to my body. I want to make my health a priority. So I will be posting things like recipes i want to try, or something that gives me inspiration, and try to keep updated on this blog dang it!
Wish me luck!

Long time no post!

SWEET!
Got on the scale this morning and I've hit the 10 lbs lost mark! I sooooo needed that this week! I'm still struggling with money issues, but I promised myself I would make it work, and I WILL compete this year!
I've got the support of some great friends and a great boyfriend (who is going to be doing his first bodybuilding show).
I'm getting a teammate to mail me one of her old suits to see if it fits and if it does I'm buying that, which will save me 100 bucks if I bought it new.
So got some good things going on! Finally!

Ready to hit it!

Just started working with IFBB Figure Pro Marie Ann O'neil (MO) Newman and her husband Jim! I'm so friggin' excited. Already have a suit I like in mind 17 weeks early! lol

I'm doing a pre-contest contest diet. Basically doing some spring cleaning on my diet. Taking out some not-so-good for me stuff and gearing up for the long weeks ahead!

I'm excited, but I remember how the diet made me last year. I'm going to try my best not to be a Cranky Cathy! It's going to be hard, but just gotta keep a positive outlook! Gotta keep all the negativity from taking over!

Hoping this excitement will take me through the new 17 weeks!

                                            I know, not a bikini girl, but I thought it was cute!

Time to rinse out my shaker cup!

Day one of contest prep diet is on-track. This time around is going to suck worse than last time! But can't wait to get this fluff off! Still kinda un-sure which direction I'm going in figure or bikini. I'm going to bust my butt and try to get up on stage in a figure suit!
Time to buckle down and hit this hard. Gotta get it in my head that I CAN do this!
Workouts have been good this week. My wrist had to be adjusted by a chiropractor about a week ago and it's still complaining, but I'm trying to work around it. I don't got time for dat! Been pretty sick, and feeling a little better.
Josh (the best bf ever) has been really sick and has made it back to the gym. Hurray!
Oh yeah, and Marissa is the best workout partner ever! There have been many-a-morning where I haven't felt like pushing myself and she is great motivation. :)

This is what I feel like happened!...

                                                 I won't let this happen next off-season!