One day at a time...

Yesterday was a trying day, both mentally and physically.

Realized I have a loooong way to go to work on being happy with myself. Spiritually, physically, and mentally. I'm in a place where I could settle and be "just ok" with some of these, but not really happy. I think all of these tie together and when one is off balance the others will soon follow. You can't make up for the weakest link by trying to make the others stronger. Cause no matter how hard you try, eventually that weak link is gonna give, then what good are the others? That weak link has gotta be worked on first!

Stress is the reason my balance is off. It's like a little gremlin with a hack saw trying to cut the steel holding my chain together. I have to am going to work on stress management.

                                                    Ever feel like this? Yeah, me too!

Stress has a way of taking a toll on everything. Yesterday, it even affected my health. I had to leave work because of stress (and possibly something I ate. But, with eating clean I doubt it) messing with my tummy.

So that's the final straw! I'm going to get a handle on this! Time to reel in this 3 ring circus! I'm the ring master, not one of the clowns!
(would insert a picture of a clown here, but really?)

Can't keep up!

So many things are going on! Seems like it's hard to focus on one thing at a time.
I'm the kind of person who obsesses. My brain runs in a stream of consciousness that as soon as it finishes one thought, it's on to the next one! Thinking about getting into yoga, or meditation. Something to help me calm down and enjoy the moment I'm in. My life is a constant GO GO GO! I'm thinking I need an hour sometime during the day to re-focus.

(this looks so nice and relaxing...It will be me soon!)

Had some bad luck recently, and really want to focus more on the positive than on the negative. I have so much to be thankful for, and really need to.. well...be thankful for it!
So this blog started out as a way to document my contest preps, but now I'm going to focus more on a way to get my thoughts out and keep an update on my personal health and fitness.
So, starting with today!
Got up at 5am...yes, I like getting my workouts out of the way early so it's one less thing that I have to do.
Hit glutes at the gym, and got in some cardio! DONE! 
I'm eating clean still, and focused on just being better to my body. I want to make my health a priority. So I will be posting things like recipes i want to try, or something that gives me inspiration, and try to keep updated on this blog dang it!
Wish me luck!